29“very filthy women”： Ibid., 47, in PHL, page 401 in PDF.
30“indecently torn”： Ibid.
31“unfragrant water”： Ibid., 47–48, in PHL, pages 401–2 in PDF.
32“did not see”： Ibid., 71, in PHL, page 425 in PDF.
33“Sometimes it appeared”： Ibid., 52–53, in PHL, pages 406–7 in PDF.
34“Dr. McFarland knows”： Lizzie Bonner, quoted in ibid., 53, in PHL, page 407 in PDF.
35“Repentance or exposure”： EP, “My Reproof,” MP1, 137.
36“All intercourse between”： “Proclamation,” quoted by SO, MO, 75, in PHL, page 429 in PDF.
37“universal sensation”： Attendant, quoted by EP, PHL, 335.
38“silent hisses”： SO, MO, 75, in PHL, page 429 in PDF.
39“bitter tears”： Ibid.
40“We all felt”： Ibid., 74, in PHL, page 428 in PDF.
41“reign of terror”： Ibid., 76, in PHL, page 430 in PDF.
42“We were seldom”： Ibid., 75, in PHL, page 429 in PDF.
43“and all who”： Ibid., 76, in PHL, page 430 in PDF.
44“Don’t kill me”： Ibid.
45“its most valuable”： Trustees of the Illinois State Hospital, Special Report of the Trustees, 59.
46“even an unworthy”： Testimony of Patterson, in Special Report of the Trustees, 73.
47“I feel that”： EP, GD, 4:279.
48“no use, and”： Ibid.
49“mild and gentle”： SO, MO, 77, in PHL, page 431 in PDF.
50“unmistakeable portents”： Ibid., 76, in PHL, page 430 in PDF.
CHAPTER 30
1“good talking times”： EP, PHL, 119.
2“reign of terror”： SO, MO, 76, in PHL, page 430 in PDF.
3“the capacity”： “Eighth Biennial Report,” 332.
4“full to overflowing”： AM, in ibid., 372.
5“extreme limit”： Ibid., 351.
6“been in so”： “Eighth Biennial Report,” 331.
7“great professional skill”： Ibid., 332.
8“indefinitely postponed”： Trustees’ Records, December 3, 1862, quoted in Special Report of the Trustees, 31.
9“I never felt”： EP, TE, 83.
10“shut their ears”： Ibid., 82.
11“There is no”： Ibid.
12“sickened”： Ibid., 81.
13“If grief can”： Ibid., 83.
14“broken and”： Ibid.
15“It is proper”： Trustees of the Illinois State Hospital, Special Report of the Trustees, 31.
16“In the…retaining”： “Eighth Biennial Report,” 337.
17“very much grieved”： EP, TE, 83.
18Conversation between EP and AM: Recounted by EP, ibid., 81–82.
19“It shall be”： EP, GD, 2:71–72.
20“Perhaps I am”： EP, TE, 83.
21“dead cart”： Shedd, “Testimony of Mrs. Tirzah F. Shedd,” in “Mrs. Packard’s Coadjutor’s Testimony,” 136, in PHL, page 490 in PDF.
22“hasty spade”： SO, MO, 40, in PHL, page 394 in PDF.
23“a beast”： EP, MP2, 271.
24“in the dead”： Ibid., 270.
25“the saddest month”： SO, MO, 78, in PHL, page 432 in PDF.
26“sense of utter”： Ibid.
27“daughters of affliction”： Ibid.
28“dim, shadowy”： Ibid.
29“undermining of every”： Ibid.
30“grass before the”： Francis Augustin O’Reilly, The Fredericksburg Campaign （Baton Rouge: Louisiana State University Press, 2003）， 318.
31“Doubt—suspense—uncertainty”： EP, TE, 84.
32“The faces of all”： SO, MO, 78, in PHL, page 432 in PDF.
33“Darkness, cold and”： Ibid.
34“the bell heavily”： Ibid.
PART FOUR: DEAL WITH THE DEVIL?
EPIGRAPHS
1“We must have”： Marie Curie, as quoted in Madame Curie: A Biography （Hachette Books, 1937） by Eve Curie, 158.
2“She stood in”： Elizabeth Edwards, as quoted in Sarah Netter, “Elizabeth Edwards: In Her Own Words,” ABC News, December 7, 2010, https://abcnews.go.com/US/elizabeth-edwards-words/story?id=12337723.
CHAPTER 31
1“On this book”： EP, MK, 83.
2“single anchor”： Ibid.
3“sinking ship”： Ibid.
4“He has given”： EP, GD, 2:404.
5“argued and discussed”： EP, MK, 83.
6“Vain my logic”： Ibid.