My heart was breaking. I stood up and moved to the iron railing to look out at the sea. “Did they think it was just temporary? That my dad wouldn’t survive for more than a few years? Is that why Anton agreed to keep quiet about it? Did they expect that they would be together again, eventually?”
“I believe that’s what Anton expected,” Francesco said. “And please don’t think he was a bad person, wishing for your father to die. He never wished that. He felt guilty enough as it was, and he did everything he could to help your father.”
I swung around to face him. “What do you mean?”
“Financially,” Francesco explained with a shrug of his shoulder, as if I should know.
“Are you telling me that he supported us?”
“Yes, he sent money to your mother every month.”
“But I thought we were living on medical insurance money and then the proceeds from my mother’s life insurance policy.”
He nodded. “You were. But Anton paid for your mother’s insurance policy, just to be safe. It was his idea, not long after she left Italy. He wanted to make sure you’d be taken care of in the event of your mother’s death. He was always a planner, very smart about money.”
I bent over the railing and bowed my head. “I can’t believe it,” I said breathlessly. “All this time, I hated him. I thought he took advantage of my mother. If I’d only known.”
A terrible regret came at me suddenly, knocking me off kilter. Anton, my real father, was dead, and I would never get the chance to meet him. It was too late now.
My heart squeezed agonizingly in my chest. What a fool I had been. I should have searched for the truth sooner. I shouldn’t have buried my head in the sand, buried all my questions for the sake of my father’s emotional stability.
Fighting to maintain my composure, I faced Francesco. “Why didn’t Anton contact me and tell me what you just told me? I never knew he cared for me or for my mother. Why did he let me believe that he didn’t?”
“Because he didn’t know you knew the truth. Your mother’s death was devastating for him, but it didn’t change the promise he made to her—that he would wait until after Freddie was gone to approach you. All his life, he was waiting for that day.”
“And no one expected my dad to live as long as he did,” I replied with newfound understanding.
“Thirty-one years,” Francesco said. “He certainly beat the odds.”
“He outlived them both.” I returned to my chair at the table and sat down. “Where do I go from here? How do I live with this?”
Francesco folded his hands across his lap and squinted into the bright sunshine. “It seems that your more immediate problem is making sure that Anton’s final wishes are respected. He loved his children, and it’s important for everyone to realize that he didn’t disinherit them—although it might seem like that from their point of view. But I can tell you this, in no uncertain terms—he wasn’t pressured into changing his will. He wanted his children to learn something, to learn how to be grateful and not take things for granted, and to be independent and budget their money, for pity’s sake, and stop going through life thinking it grows on trees. Anton had a very strong work ethic, and I think this was his way of forcing Connor and Sloane to wake up to that. Heaven knows he tried to teach them that while he was alive, but their mother got in the way of it. Kate did love to spoil them.”
I exhaled heavily. “I’m still shocked by it.”
“Don’t be. He knew it would bring you here, and I suspect he wanted his children to meet you and maybe learn a few things from you.”
“But he didn’t even know me,” I argued. “What if I was as spoiled as they were?”
Francesco shook his head. “He knew your mother. He knew how she would raise you.”
We sat together, listening to the gentle thunder of the surf on the rugged coastline below, breathing in the salty scent of the Tyrrhenian Sea.
“Thank you for all this,” I said. “I don’t know what I would have done if I hadn’t been able to learn the truth. But I do have one more question.”
“I’ll try to answer if I can.”
“I never got the chance to meet Anton. Marco described him as a tyrant, and Connor said he was ornery. Everything you’ve told me doesn’t sound consistent with that. What was he really like?”
Francesco gazed out at the turquoise water. “When I first met him, and when your mother knew him, he was a joyful, passionate lover of life. As for him being a tyrant? I was loyal to him, right up until the very end, but I can’t deny that he was difficult and bad tempered at times. There was a very specific moment when he lost his sense of joy, and he was never the same after that.”